Tuesday, July 19, 2011


This week we will be going to a hospital so my 3 year old son can have surgery on his hands. The doctor doesn't know what the growths are, but isn't worried. Right now I feel neither scared or anxious but that may change. I used to worry all the time, as a child I was nervous and anxious. I bit my nails, sucked my thumb and twirled my hair (and would pull it out). My first grade picture is lacking in hair.

A few years ago I realized I never worried about things that were in my control, I only worried about things out of my control, like other people and their choices, health issues, if other people liked me and what they thought about me. Worry for me was a huge burden and though things still bother me, I don't feel compelled to worry all the time anymore. I pray, I am thankful for the many blessings and I let go of the worry. I don't put things out of my mind or deny their existence, I just don't let them become all consuming.

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