Confession: Some days I invent things to do so I can get out of my house. I am doing this less and less because I am finding ways to enjoy being at home more. Most of the time I pack up the kids and we go to the library. I am fortunate to live in a city with a wonderful library. My library is my favorite place to go with my kids and by myself.
I started changing my attitude about being home. I usually wanted to "get out" on difficult days, when things were not going the way I wanted. I have a problem with control and expectations. I liked to control things and often people (which by the way isn't possible) and I had expectations about how my day should go. I would often be frustrated and disappointed by 10:30 and need an excuse to break up the monotony and feelings of failure. The reason I kept doing this was it worked. Then something unexpected happened my family started growing, exponentially.
I had at the time three wonderful kids ages 4 1/2, 2, and 1 we were busy doing things and enjoying life. And then we thought we would like to try for one more when I got back from Europe. On a train heading to Versailles I got what I thought was motion sickness. Or more commonly know as morning sickness.
At 16 weeks I went to see my doctor, he did a little ultrasound in the office and there were two heads (he thought).Shock. I was not expecting I would have twins. They were born a month early but very healthy in December of 2009.
So having 5 kids five and under offered me the opportunity to be a stay at home mom. I already was a full time mom but the phrase "stay at home mom" was loosely applied. Now venturing out was not an option without help.
But I didn't mind so much. We are busy at home and enjoy hanging out. We are homebodies. Some days I like to get out still and we still go to the library or the park but now I love being at home.